Tuesday, September 15, 2009

A Peaceful ending

Dustin Lewis Bowman passed away peacefully on Sept. 15, at 5:06am. He had been found as a code blue on Friday which apparently triggered seizures which never really stopped despite anti-seizure drugs at amounts they had never used. They put him in a medical coma as well trying to get the brain to rest but it never seemed to stop.

He gave a good hard fight in the end as he has done his whole life but especially the past year. Not really ever complaining about the paralysis, but wanting to use that creative mind to write he has instead written something profound in our hearts. Mostly we didn't see it ,but with his passing ,we realized how much his quirky personality and love to "get a line" for use in possible writing had written deeply in the tablets of our heart.

You can't even imagine how much this occurred until we saw doctors, therapists, aides, etc spending time with us, laughing, crying, talking about how Dustin had effected them. Who would have thought when we would hear Dustin's disgruntles with staff , his rough words in their direction etc that even then, they loved him for his real heart below which they experienced for the past 7 months. They knew under those layers of crustiness that there was a lot of fun, trying to see if he could get a rise out of them for a possible movie line or to challenge them to see if they would stand up to him which he greatly admired.

With his passing, we will continue to carry the vision to help those with spinal cord injuries live a in a home environment with some unique physical therapy at Step it Up. We have named the home we had bought for Dustin, "Creative Footage". Yep, somewhat a weird name but very descriptive. Dustin was all about creating stories and his beloved film career that never quite got to get started despite graduating from Fullsail University. It was a little less than a year ago as he was traveling to Los Angeles that he had his car wreck that put a hold on his career. instead he created "footage" in his life at the Neurotrauma unit in Albequerque, Augusta VA and finally at the polytrauma unit at the Tampa VA. Of course "footage" also is our hope for those with spinal injuries to get up and walk in their own very special way.

We want to salute everyone on the medical team that has gone above and beyond to give Dustin the best care. Tampa VA has won a special place in my heart with their care for our Veterans. There is a sign when you go in the front door that says "The price of freedom is visible here". I have never seen such people with a heart to serve these men and women and a heart to continue their knowledge in how to best care for these soldiers.

They will be doing a complete medical exam from the time he entered in to the Air Force to early this morning. The combined effects of a spinal cord injury, brain injury and the resulting seizures is a very new phenomenon in how to care for it. They are consistently trying to learn from each and every medical opportunity and we are grateful that Dustin's passing will be learned from to help others. Many of our soldiers coming back from the war have these kind of injuries and much needs to be understood of the synergistic effects of these issues.


Rick and I want to thank you for each and every prayer. Don't every think for one minute that God did not hear them. Do remember however His plans and ways are higher than ours. Do not think for one minute that I understand His plan, only trust Him in all things. If you think about it, Dustin's abbreviated life has changed us all in some profound way. I only ask that you look at what that might have been.


For me, it has been a horrifically wonderful year. Without the past year, I don't think I would have ever learned to trust and lean on God like never before... I mean really trust Him no matter what. I also learned to give up so much control, never knowing what the next thing would be and how fast it would come and I would have to respond. For that I am grateful. I learned to love my son on a deeper way as a mother, something that was hard in the early young years of my life overcoming addictions and the pain of my own life. I will always be forever grateful for the 24 and almost 26 years of life with my two sons. Would I have liked to have way more years? Absolutely! But then they were a gift from God from the very beginning, they were His children before He allowed me to have them. I am grateful that God saw something in me to bless me with these 2 very unique creations.


Forrest and Dustin I will miss you forever! I look forward to playing with you for eternity. You are good sons. I love you, I am glad you were born, I am so proud of you.

Dustin Lewis Bowman 3-26-85 to 9-15-09
Forrest Lee Bowman 12-26-82 to 9-21-08

26 comments:

Chuck said...

Dear Rick and Mary Pat,
We have never met, but since I heard of your story, almost a year ago, you and Dustin have been in my daily prayers. I'm sorry for your loss and will continue to pray that our heavenly Father will comfort you during your time of grief.
For just as the sufferings of Christ flow over into our lives, so also through Christ our comfort overflows. 2 Chron 1:5
Your Brother in Christ,
Chuck

Unknown said...

We have all learned a lot this past year as we have walked with you in this incredible journey. Your faith and love has challenged us and given us hope.
Looking forward to helping you guys make Creative Footage a reality. So many people want to "do" something for you so let everyone know how.
Ray and Diane

Anonymous said...

Your LOVE is showing.

...Through your words,

....through your sharing Dustin with us on your blog,

...through just you being you.

We mourn with you in your loss, but even more look forward with hope of what God is birthing in your hearts as you walk through and forward.

Take time to rest in knowing you're just a girl and guy in this, and you are much loved, too.
It's not like there's a step by step instruction book on how to walk through something this big, and lots of somethings, but like you say, you trust the Man in charge, and know He loves you. Brad and I are praying for you & Nerina. May God continue to give you peace and help and just hold you, uphold you, when you reach out to Him for comfort. We love you a lot.


Brad & Autumne

Suzy W. said...

Dearest Mary Pat & Rick,

Your words so eloquent, your faith so strong and intact. We share your grief and know how we hold you and all your family in our hearts and prayers. God heard our collective cry and Dustin hears God's loving voice.

Suzy

Lori Colley Praying Citizen said...

Dear Mary Pat and Rick,
You have been good representatives of God, establishing His kingdom on this earth. And He is pleased. Thank you for the faith you have imparted into our lives. It has been a great spiritual gift. We love you.
Bob and Lori

Unknown said...

You are an inspiration Mary Pat. My heart hurts with you. And I am so glad to be part of your family.
I love you,
Helena

Unknown said...

We love you and admire your fight and faith. And that goes for Dustin, too.

John and Adrienne
Ian, Maran, Salem, Luke and Racquel

Unknown said...

Dear Rick and Mary Pat,
I'm so sorry to hear of Dustin's death. I deeply sympathize with you in this loss. I will continue to pray for you. God has already met you in wonderful ways and I know He will continue to be there for you.
Love,
Ruth

Vicki Sigg said...

Mary Pat and Rick, your family is in my thoughts and prayers in this time of healing. A glimpse of Dustin comes to my mind, even having never met him - he's happy, writing and resting. He is with God.
Vicki

Filleduroi said...

Mary Pat,

Words can't express what I feel for you as a mother...my heart goes out to you in a big, big way. I also wanted to tell you what an inspiration of faith and trust you have been through all of this. God has truly been your strength and that is SUCH a testimony! Please know that I will be there for you as much as possible whenever you need a friend as well. You are a dear, dear sister and precious daughter of the King, "une fille du roi"! love and prayers, Tracy

Geo. said...
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Geo. said...

Mary Pat and Rick,
I just heard about Dustin's death. There is so much that can, and can't be said, I wouldn't know where to start.... or stop. I certainly don't want to be trite given the two dark valleys you've had to travel through. Just know you weigh heavy in my prayers, and Second Presbyterian's.

anakalia said...

Rick and Mary Pat:
My heart is reaching out to you more than my head can express words at the moment. It is a great challenge for all to stay true to the Lord in our times of need. I, too, use Jesus as a role model for living with the cross we often have to bear. You are an inspiration and much loved by all...
xox
Andrea

Anonymous said...

Dear Rick & Mary Pat -- I'm writing again at almost 6:57pm Calgary time (two hours behind where you're at), sitting here in absolute shock with the news of Dustin's passing this morning (Tuesday, 15 Sept 2009). While reading your blog in the wee hours last nite, it felt like I was really getting to know him, and so strongly identified with his struggle (I've had an enormous amount of not just physical, but also emotional, mental and spiritual anguish as well). But I can't even begin to imagine all that you're thinking and feeling right now. I've lost a lot over the years (I'm now 51 years young), and had to give up an unborn child when I was 19 or 20, but with you now losing both your twenty-something sons ... Words are really inadequate, but I can only en-Courage (INTO COURAGE!) you at this time to hold onto God with every ounce of determination, and take to heart all the very best and sage advice in your blogs this past year. Even though I "met" Dustin mere minutes -- 67 to be exact (I can't believe and am stunned by this reality!) before He went to be with our Dear Saviour and Lord, he deeply touched my heart and has "helped" me enormously, more than I can express in this electronic medium. Thank you SO MUCH for generously and faithfully chronicling Dustin's journey!!! I was thinking that perhaps you could maintain contact with that producer and still make his movie (when the time is right), with your/his story and with all his wonderful memories -- to help others like me, out here in cyberspace, who've been CHANGED by all the VICTORIES won since the accident and loss of his older brother. Thank God I'm not physically paralyzed, but I've been incapacitated in so many other ways, bedridden or 'horizontal' with a (demonic) spirit of grief and sorrow I couldn't battle alone. The last few years I've been semi-catatonic, barely functioning (more existing really) due to the pain of all my injuries and trauma. I've always been leery of pharmaceuticals, so was able to avoid the drugs issue, but it's been a v-e-r-y long, slow, agonizing climb back up into the Land of the Living. And I will carry Dustin's story in my heart now for the rest of my life, and this will in turn help me to OVERCOME and bring hope to countless others (God willing). So, all your hard work and 'labour of love' has NOT BEEN IN VAIN. "So shall My Word be that goeth forth out of My mouth; it shall NOT return unto Me void, but it SHALL ACCOMPLISH THAT WHICH I PLEASE, AND IT SHALL PROSPER IN THE THING WHERETO I SENT IT" (Isaiah 55:11 KJV). Let the arms of Jesus swaddle you in His Comfort and Serenity, His strong embrace, and "Place Me like a seal over your heart, like a seal on your arm; for LOVE IS AS STRONG AS DEATH, its jealousy unyielding as the grave. IT BURNS LIKE BLAZING FIRE, LIKE A MIGHTY FLAME. MANY WATERS CANNOT QUENCH LOVE; RIVERS CANNOT WASH IT AWAY. If one were to give all the wealth of his house for love, it would be utterly scorned (Song of Solomon 8:6&7). And may our great God and Father of us all GRANT YOU SHALOM, love Gail

Unknown said...

Marypat and Rick,
Today I envision Dustin skipping over a rainbow bridge--skipping lightly with legs that work. His hands wave in the air -- arms light as a feather. He tilts his head back to let the sun shine on his face -- a neck that works perfectly. The sunshine feelt wonderful to him and he continues to skip and run. He smiles because he is perfect.

With deepest thoughts of you and Rick and the ways you and Dustin have touched us in the past year.

Sincerely,

Shirley Welch

Stacey R. Louiso said...

Hi Mary Pat,

Firstly, I love and miss you and think of you often. Gretchen emailed me this morning to let me know about Dustin. I am so deeply sorry...what a year this has been for you all. I sat here in shock most of the day and tonight Gretch was kind enough to send me a link to your blog...as I read, the shock led to the tears which had been held captive in my heart all day.

I have so many wonderful memories of Dustin--hard to believe I met him at age 14. I loved him, Mary Pat--he brought so many laughs and annoyances at once but that smile and those eyes always showed the truth--love and warmth. :)

I knew he was pursuing a career in film and would like to discuss helping you make certain his goal of documenting his life comes true...I have connections and resources in the Industry. Once things settle down, let's discuss. It's the least I can do... helping to continue his dreams.

I will write you a letter as I don't have your email address or phone number. You can get in touch with me at: staceyrlouiso1@mac.com.

All my love and prayers,
Stacey Louiso

Unknown said...

Dear Rick and Mary Pat:
You and Dustin are living epistles written on our hearts. Thank you for all you have shared and imparted to us through the trials of this past year. Thank you for showing us God's rest, and even joy, in our trials. I pray and know that he will bring beauty for ashes in all of this. I grieve for your losses and rejoice for your hopes. Thinking of you with much fondness and affection, Bridget

Anonymous said...

Lord, if there were words that could heal a heart, I would speak them. If there were songs that could fill the emptiness, I would sing them. If there were arms big enough to hold the loss, I would extend them. But only You, Lord, can offer these precious mercies. In Your grace, please grant them, Lord. May the Lord make His presence known; may the music of His heart bring sweet comfort; and may His arms wrap all around you until you are embraced in His compassionate love.

Unknown said...

Mary Pat and Rick,
My heart aches for your loss. Your faith and your tenacity has been an inspiration for us all. You know I love you and will do anything I can for you.
Marcia

Filleduroi said...

Rick, just wanted you to know, I am thinking of you as well...sorry I left you out on that last one. As a mother, I just felt led to share specifically with Marypat. I know this has been a very difficult year for you as well, but I am so thankful that you have had each other and the LORD to lean on as your strength. HE'S a big daddy and HE loves and cares so much for you both. Thank you for your inspiration of faith in all of this and for your testimony of HIS love and strength! love, Tracy

Cami said...

Dear Rick & Mary Pat,
My heart has grieved with you this past year with the loss of Forrest, and now the passing of Dustin. Thank you for sharing your heart and your sons with us all...what precious gifts! My love and prayers are with you.
Cami

Unknown said...

I was one of Dustins friends during his time at McGuire AFB, we lived a few doors from each other. Myself along with a few others were the closest of friends and we shared some of the best times in our lives. I really wanted to go to Florida and visit, and I regret I never did, but I know hes in good hands now. I have never been an emotional person, I am not known for mu feelings, but learning of Dustins death has hit me harder than anything I have felt. So many good times during and after he was seperated. I will never forget you buddy. EVER. Love you man, until we meet again...Jeremy

Unknown said...

Mary Pat and Rick,
We were on vacation in California when one night in the early early hours the Lord woke me up twice with Mary Pat and Dustin on my mind. I had no idea what was going on but finally it dawned on me that the Lord was urgently telling me to pray. When I recalculate to the best of my ability I believe it was the night of Dustin's struggle and passing and the grief surrounding it and the Lord knew and was waking His people up to pray. I sent a big SOS up to the Lord that night. It wasn't till we came home a week later that we found out what happened to you. What a blessing your blog has been, and what a lesson it has been to all of us who were drawn into your journey thanks to your blog. My prayer now is that besides grief you may so know the Lord's comfort on the deepest level and that for the loss you will have the greatest gain in years to come.
We are glad too that Forrest and Dustin were born. We are also glad that you were born because you are a good daughter, and a good sister to us! And Rick: you are an awesome husband!!
From all of us in Leesburg, Va.: we salute you!
Steve and Jackie Brown, Sheree Bloch, Robyn Anson, and other 7000 Project members in the area

Anonymous said...

Dear MaryPat,
I am very saddened by the news of Dustin. In my heart he will always be my little brother & I will miss him so. When it is my time to stand beside the Good Lord I will know that Dustin will be there to give me a brotherly hug. Please know that I am praying for you and your family! Love, Ryan Ward

amazing grace said...

Rick and Mary Pat,

As a mother of two sons, I cannot begin to express my sorrow over your losing Dustin not a year after losing Forrest! Yet, of course, my sorrow is infinitesimal compared to yours.

All I can do is praise God that He gave us memory -- so that both your Dustin and Forrest will forever live large and in color in your heart and mind's eye and that the REAL LIFE with your boys (and your mother and mine and Charlie) will not only be AS real as this one, but far MORE real and --- WITHOUT END!

Keep standing,
We do win!
Judi Klug

Melanie said...

Hi Rick and Mary Pat,

I was saddened to read the message of Dustin's passing. His battle is over and he is with our Lord. You were a tireless gift to Dustin. Always there to help and encourage.

I will pass this news on to the NSICU at UNMH.

God Be with you,

Melanie and Bud Tidman
Albuquerque, NM